Bored

Feeling very Carrie Bradshaw sitting tapping away on my keyboard, pausing occasionally to think and twisting my coffee cup round and round. I still can’t do that thing where I put my feet on the chair I’m sitting on though, and I’m not sitting around in my underwear. Because I am sill fat. I would…

I’m Back!

As you know, it’s been a while since I’ve posted. I always thought I was mostly writing this blog for me, kind of as a therapeutic tool, but a few people I didn’t even know followed my blog have asked me why I have stopped doing it. Maybe people can see themselves; their own issues…

Turmeric toddy

This is so warming & comforting as a bed time drink.  A big old mug of cashew milk (you can use any milk you want but I like cashew because I like to have plenty of cashews for my mental health). 1 tsp turmeric. 1 tsp cinnamon. 2 tsp agave, honey or coconut sugar. Heat…

Recovery 

I am one week into full on recovery from my eating disorder. This is the first week in my life I think that I have eaten intuitively, placing absolutely no logical restrictions on what, where and when I eat. The only ‘rules’ I have applied to myself are eat when hungry, eat slowly and consciously…

Binge eating disorder & Food addiction 

Beat (formerly the eating disorders association) characterises binge eating disorder as “a serious mental Health illness where people experience a loss of control and over eat on a regular basis”. Wikipedia, web MD and the world health organisation, also classify binge eating disorder similarly. Clearly, people in the know are calling over eating an eating…

Why I have stopped restricting what I eat 

For the past 20 years I have been fighting an unhealthy battle with food & my body. For pretty much as long as I can remember I have yo yo’d between dieting and binge eating. The reasons why I started doing this and why it continued are no longer relevant to me and now the…

Body positive plan

I have come up with a simple 6 point action plan to support my journey to a healthy body & mind & recovery from binge eating. I wanted to share this as I think it’s my most healthy & achievable plan, and I’m sure it’s the only way this thing is going to work for…

Love your body 

Hello everyone !!!! I don’t mind telling you the last few weeks have been tough. They have seen me struggling big time & I have had to concede defeat against the juice detox, weight watchers, clean eating, over eaters anonymous, 5:2 fasting and slimming world.I have come to the sad realisation that none of them…

Real simple baked trout

1 whole trout. Herbs (I used oregano, sage and rosemary as I had them in the garden). 2 cloves garlic. 1 lemon (sliced). foil. Heat your oven to 200c and put your trout (gutted buy your fish monger if you’re not confident doing this yourself) on foil. Stuff with the ingredients and seal the foil…

Juice Reboot

Today I have reached the end of 7 days of keeping a picture food journal. I started the journal because I wasn’t losing any weight and I felt I needed to get a grip on what I was eating. I needed it in black and white (well actually in sparkling camera phone colour but you…

Juices or Smoothies?

I have been watching the documentary Fat, sick and nearly dead ( Joe Cross lost considerable weight and cured himself of an horrific skin condition by consuming nothing but water and veg and fruit juice for 60 days) and this has got me thinking about nutrition in juice versus smoothies and whether incorporating juices into…

Anxiety & Over eating

I am still struggling lately with the foods and the amounts that I am eating on non fasting days. I am not over eating to the point of nausea and I’m not thoughtlessly shoveling food in to dull my emotions. But I am still making not the best choices for my body a lot of…